Have you ever felt or said, "This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do?" Have you ever thought, "Every time I decide to stop drinking, I can't keep my promise to myself. I know it's harmful to me, it no longer tastes good, it just make me feel sick and still, I keep going back to it. I wonder what's wrong with me?" Well, there is no-thing wrong with you. You are simply experiencing a break up and breaking up can be painful & sometimes difficult. You may feel powerless to stop the drinking and even if you force yourself to stop, you are setting yourself up for a relapse (going back to the bottle). You are not powerless and never have been, however. You only felt that way. You need to recognize that a break up is in process. You have decided to end your relationship with Alcohol (your lover for an extended period of time). Oh, you may have had numerous human lovers during that time period but Alcohol has been your primary relationship, your real lover, the one you have thought about constantly and to which you have given your full attention, eliminating other people, things and activities in your life. Remember how you obsessed about having that next drink? Yes, you are facing a break up and need to release your addiction as just that. A good bye, the shedding of tears, anguish, fear and loss are all appropriate feelings in this case. As with any loss, you must allow yourself to experience the grieving process...the death and burial of your relationship. Elizabeth Kubler Ross describes this process as having denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and finally, acceptance. You will most likely deny that your addiction was really that harmful, you may focus on the "seemingly good times" fooling yourself that those times were really high quality ones. Then, after a period of time, you will turn to anger at your lover, Alcohol, with your, "How dare yous," and you may even rage at yourself for allowing this mess to happen. You'll process the "what ifs," and the "I could haves." You may even sink into depression, not wanting to talk to anyone or even leave the house. Then, with time, that depression will transform into acceptance, allowance and the ability to let go. Relief will be felt and savored. When this letting go progression occurs, you must become conscious that your addiction has had an energy of its own. After all, everything is energy. Science today validates this fact and proves that energy is not destroyed but rather transferred into another form, something else. At any time during your letting go procedures, you can apply the following exercise to gain control over Alcohol: Imagine yourself growing larger...larger than your house, extending out into the size of your city, your state, your country, the globe and out into the universe. Now, at your new, gigantic size, bring Alcohol in front of you. Notice how you are the one in charge. Tell Alcohol you no longer need it, or desire to have any relationship with it. Release it. You can even, if you choose, shrink it to the size of a pea and roll it into the ocean to be washed away. Or you might decide to blow it into a million pieces. Enjoy yourself as you destroy the energy it once held over you. Letting go becomes so much easier when you have tools that empower you. What if you could let go so easily? Can you make that decision now and free yourself?